Crusty erikleen & the child slave labor shillingers part 6

Josh said in his new video that he's been feeling guilty for finally being happy meanwhile Cultlean has been spewing "happiness". The maturity contrast is astounding between them. Now that they're no longer together it's hard for me to imagine them ever being together.

Just watched Josh's newest vlog. He looks GREAT!

Maybe I'm being really dense..but I don't understand why he would feel guilty for feeling happy. I could totally understand that if he were a widower..but since SHE wanted the divorce, and he has to suspect she cheated, at least emotionally (I still say sexually too). So why would he feel guilty about being happy?
I don't know why that is bothering me so much.. Maybe cause I think it means Colin gaslit him into thinking he drove her into the arms of another? And that colin hasn't had a moment of guilt while she's feeling happy bumping uglies with Erik.
I don't know but it really bothers and perpexes me.

Wow, just watched the Ballinger's vlog. I don't know how but my opinion of Chris went even lower. I get being attracted to long hair, but tell a white lie and tell your wife you like it for cripes sake. Her hair looks so much better, so it's not even a like to say it looks good! smh

I am definitely thinking more and more that the reason she has no sad videos post-divorce isn't that she internalizes everything over therapy (I have a hard time believing she is even going to one), but because she got what she wanted. Also, she can't divulge anything and be real with her audience about it without it reflecting badly on her, and that's what it boils down to. Because she is a very self-seeking individual by nature, it seems.
It looks like she was definitely doing some things behind Josh's back, though, and that's what makes me really feel for him...
I just found it frustrating how she had clearly checked out of her emotions for Josh by that point, and it was like she got married to HBO. I understand having a passion for your career, but for her it's...almost manic? How obsessed she is with it. What will she do after it's over?!

Chris just posted a picture of Jessica and Duncan on Instagram. "This woman is my world! I love you Jessica Ballinger!! You're so amazing and smart and strong and your new haircut is beautiful. Also, Duncan is pretty cute too."

Someone is either feeling guilty or getting shit or reading here. Hi Chris!

Jul 11, 2017 10:01:54 GMT 10 curiousgeorgette said:

I am definitely thinking more and more that the reason she has no sad videos post-divorce isn't that she internalizes everything over therapy (I have a hard time believing she is even going to one), but because she got what she wanted. Also, she can't divulge anything and be real with her audience about it without it reflecting badly on her, and that's what it boils down to. Because she is a very self-seeking individual by nature, it seems.
It looks like she was definitely doing some things behind Josh's back, though, and that's what makes me really feel for him...
I just found it frustrating how she had clearly checked out of her emotions for Josh by that point, and it was like she got married to HBO. I understand having a passion for your career, but for her it's...almost manic? How obsessed she is with it. What will she do after it's over?!

I really hope she thinks of something to do if HBO doesn't pan out. Maybe an avenue that doesn't involve Miranda at all. I seem to be in the minority who isn't waiting with bated breath for her to have a breakdown, I hope she actually work out her issues. Don't worry, I'm not a minion in disguise I just see a lot of myself in Colleen and for some strange reason I think that's why I talk so much shit about her, hate people to take your mind off how you hate yourself, that ol chestnut...

Yeah but notice she's not that manic over her career this season! She hates being in Vancouver and editing the episodes because Air-ick is not there!! There was no real sadness expressed about her HBO "family" separation this time--I think it was 100% all about Erik and the conflicting emotions about being stuck in a marriage she didn't want and not being able to have Erik.

Jul 11, 2017 9:52:50 GMT 10 verukasalt said:

Just watched Josh's newest vlog. He looks GREAT!

Maybe I'm being really dense..but I don't understand why he would feel guilty for feeling happy. I could totally understand that if he were a widower..but since SHE wanted the divorce, and he has to suspect she cheated, at least emotionally (I still say sexually too). So why would he feel guilty about being happy?
I don't know why that is bothering me so much.. Maybe cause I think it means Colin gaslit him into thinking he drove her into the arms of another? And that colin hasn't had a moment of guilt while she's feeling happy bumping uglies with Erik.
I don't know but it really bothers and perpexes me.

You aren't dense. It is an interesting question. I wonder if it might be:

~Colleen has looked freaking ridiculous spouting off her fake happiness non-stop.  Maybe he doesn't want to appear insincere. 

~Maybe it is if you feel happiness after losing something or someone, you worry you are minimizing the impact it had on your life? 

He almost sounded surprised he can feel happiness again.  That must feel SO good. I  think he is maturing into a cool guy.

In so many situations I have seen with friends/family, the leavee ends up happier than the leaver. That would be sweet! 

. (I still say sexually too.)

Jul 11, 2017 10:09:07 GMT 10 @puddlejumper said:

Yeah but notice she's not that manic over her career this season! She hates being in Vancouver and editing the episodes because Air-ick is not there!! There was no real sadness expressed about her HBO "family" separation this time--I think it was 100% all about Erik and the conflicting emotions about being stuck in a marriage she didn't want and not being able to have Erik.

Maybe, just maybe, it was a set romance.  And,now that they can actually semi-hang, the thrill has worn off. And, maybe Colleen realizes she blew up her life and marriage and reputation and family and Josh for a fleeting wiener. 

Jul 11, 2017 9:52:50 GMT 10 verukasalt said:

Just watched Josh's newest vlog. He looks GREAT!

Maybe I'm being really dense..but I don't understand why he would feel guilty for feeling happy. I could totally understand that if he were a widower..but since SHE wanted the divorce, and he has to suspect she cheated, at least emotionally (I still say sexually too). So why would he feel guilty about being happy?
I don't know why that is bothering me so much.. Maybe cause I think it means Colin gaslit him into thinking he drove her into the arms of another? And that colin hasn't had a moment of guilt while she's feeling happy bumping uglies with Erik.
I don't know but it really bothers and perpexes me.

I think it's because all of his life he wanted to be committed to one woman and Colleen was who he thought was his one. And he has loved her through everything, and so there is this bittersweet sadness for him to betray that vow that is so embedded in his heart that she is the one. I can understand how that would mess with your mind. Especially after being in love with someone for so many years, marrying them, and never seeing what happened next, happening. 

I'm so glad to see Josh thriving. You can just see the good energy radiating off of him.

I know a lot of guilt can come from how we think like should be. Rules that we'd like to follow but can't, or at least initially wanted to.

Wait - the video of Josh getting all honest in New York 3 weeks ago, didn't he delete that or privatize it? I could have sworn he took it off of youtube because of Colleen's minions and the Ballingers, but I'm just seeing it's actually still up. Or maybe I'm wrong.

Jul 11, 2017 10:25:24 GMT 10 curiousgeorgette said:

Wait - the video of Josh getting all honest in New York 3 weeks ago, didn't he delete that or privatize it? I could have sworn he took it off of youtube because of Colleen's minions and the Ballingers, but I'm just seeing it's actually still up. Or maybe I'm wrong.

Yeah it's still up!

Echoing verukasalt! Damn, Josh looks GOOD. Especially at the end, love his goofy smile. Okay, moving on, also echoing some thoughts already mentioned, I definitely think the reason he's feeling guilty is because Colon has made him feel it was his fault and that she was the victim in all this and also because he feels surprised/weird that not even a full year after an 8 year relationship ended he's feeling good and is realizing life does go on without the Toe and his quality of life is probably much better now! I agree that he doesn't want to minimize the huge impact it had on him, and I don't think he is. Sure it's been a rough year, but the fact that he's been able to turn his life around and get help and make real changes long before the 1 year anniversary of the divorce videos, speaks volumes!

I think a lot of people in conservative Christian homes have a problem with feeling guilty for a lot. When you grow up in that kind of environment you can't fully find out who you are and what you like. Now that he's out of the control of his parents and Colleen he's really discovering who he is which is not who Colleen wanted him to be and not fully who his parents want him to be (meaning his more liberal views and actions). Now he feels guilty for being happy in anything they wouldn't have wanted him to be happy in.

Jul 11, 2017 9:12:34 GMT 10 purplequeen said:

So, she goes to canada and tells Josh not to come cos shes over him and/or his demands for attention/clingyness, she wants some space to focus on HBO 100% cos its her dream/life etc. Gets to canada falls for erik but hes hooked up and shes married. They flirt a bit and C develops feelings for E but nothing happens, then June 2016 rolls around and C has got to say goodbye to E (everytime in the video^ that she mentions the characters/cast/her show "family" and friends etc and how much she "loves" them just translate that to "erik cos that is what she really means - I mean seriously why would she be "scared" etc just because the show is done, it doesn't make sense!)

She goes home and plays along with her marriage but knows in her heart that she is done with josh and wants Eric, she starts to get nasty/frustrated/resentful that she is "trapped" in the marriage hence all her obnoxious behaviour in all the vlogs from june onwards including the anniversary in july.

She keeps in touch with erik and invites him to spend some time with her/her family ( the ballinger painting vlog) and they both realise they want to be together so between july and sept he bins off his girlfriend, she tells Josh its over and they agree to keep it quiet until hbo comes out, then they uploaded their divorce vids. C has to give J a reason so tells him the "I cant make you happy" bullshit which he accepts and believes at the time, although he later finds out that its really because she wants erik. He also later finds out that shes been running him down to their mutual friends. Ratchel and chris say it "had to happen" because obvs, shes now banging erik.

For next 6 months following the Div announcement she keeps erik under wraps (cabingate - there was literally NO VALID REASON for him to be there - it had to be because they were a couple - it was a cosy couples weekend). Then she starts to gradually bring him out of the closet conveniently using season 2 to justify why they are spending time together because there is NO VALID reason for him to be in her house, with her fam, going on trips, celebrating holidays and being off to the side in every fucking vlog! we SEE YOU erik!

Should Josh and his therapist devote some office time discussing June, 2016?

Y'all. It finally happened. :eek: :eek: :eek:

But it's totally fine, it's cool, I'm chill. It's whatever.

It's so boring when Colleen's about to go back to Vancouver and is MIA on social media (except for the toe stuff today). I guess she needs to get in a lot of quality time with "family and friends"

Jul 11, 2017 12:12:03 GMT 10 heyhihello said:

Y'all. It finally happened. :eek: :eek: :eek:

But it's totally fine, it's cool, I'm chill. It's whatever.

SAME SAME SAME SAME LOL

Jul 11, 2017 12:22:39 GMT 10 eybb said:

Jul 11, 2017 12:12:03 GMT 10 heyhihello said:

Y'all. It finally happened. :eek: :eek: :eek:

But it's totally fine, it's cool, I'm chill. It's whatever.

SAME SAME SAME SAME LOL

Pretty sure I know who you are on Twitter now! Lolol. I feel like I've made it pretty obvious who I am with all the gushing I've been doing tonight! Hahaha Whyyyy am I like this


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I have a theory but the timing may be off. When did they tell her season two had a green light?

Also this is very random but the huge turning point for me with her was when she titled her Netflix announcement video as "I'm Having a Baby"...and in hindsight how totally fucked up was that title from Josh's perspective? Here she promised him she'd stop working so much and settle down and have kids, and instead she says fuck promises and committed herself instead to Netflix, then has the audacity to make that her officially baby announcement? Jesus that must have been a punch in the gut for him. I wonder if she did it in spite.

Jul 11, 2017 8:27:21 GMT 10 butterflysdream said:

Jul 11, 2017 8:16:03 GMT 10 beckigreen101 said:

I just watched the vlog where Chris placed some shelves in a closet or something for his office. In the video, he said that in two days they're doing a PO Box haul.
Why does a grown man with a wife and 4 kids need preteen's to mail them gifts? Even in the video description box, it says "send us stuff" and has the address.
I can't be the only one that thinks this is fucking ridiculous.

I was bothered that they ask for stuff but couldn't be bothered to buy Jacob a binder for his Pokémon cards. He had to use ziplocs and his imagination. I'm all for finding creative solutions to problems, but that one rubbed me the wrong way.


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I've been meaning to post this but completely forgot til you brought it up. I was at Target the other day and by all the pokemon cards were the card holders and binders. Literally waaaay cheaper than most of the actual cards there. Like you can buy him essentially pieces of overpriced stiff paper but you can't get him a fucking proper binder/sheets?? (Btw no hate on pokemon cards I love them lol). Poor Jacob. And how the hell are Chris and Jessica so out of touch? They aren't that much older than me but if swear they look and act like they are in their 40s. They make no sense to me.


Sorry about the bad pic. If they read here maybe they can see the pages are very cheap and maybe Jacob will get one. They probably are hoping the minions will buy it for Jake

I think part of why he feels guilty is that he wanted to save himself for his one and only, and she took that from him. Now he won't have that for the woman who he WILL spend his life with. There's a part of him that was important to him, and it will always be with Colleen. Whether it was his religion, or upbringing, or just his romantic personality, I imagine that was a very big deal for him. He said he was a virgin til what.. 27 or something? So even if it was before marriage, he thought she was the one he would grow old with, and she clearly had zero respect for his beliefs or feelings. I think dating will probably be hard for him, even when he's emotionally ready for it, because of how she abused his trust and faith.

Jul 11, 2017 12:25:44 GMT 10 heyhihello said:

Jul 11, 2017 12:22:39 GMT 10 eybb said:

SAME SAME SAME SAME LOL

Pretty sure I know who you are on Twitter now! Lolol. I feel like I've made it pretty obvious who I am with all the gushing I've been doing tonight! Hahaha Whyyyy am I like this


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I feel the same way! LOL notice me senpai 

Jul 11, 2017 10:09:07 GMT 10 @puddlejumper said:

Yeah but notice she's not that manic over her career this season! She hates being in Vancouver and editing the episodes because Air-ick is not there!! There was no real sadness expressed about her HBO "family" separation this time--I think it was 100% all about Erik and the conflicting emotions about being stuck in a marriage she didn't want and not being able to have Erik.

Personally I think she knows there won't be a season 3. Hence why she keeps grooming her fans with the "if there's no season 3 ill be okay" talks. Remember how she kept season 2 a secret and lied about when she actually found out?

Jul 11, 2017 12:27:09 GMT 10 tog4life said:

I have a theory but the timing may be off. When did they tell her season two had a green light?

Also this is very random but the huge turning point for me with her was when she titled her Netflix announcement video as "I'm Having a Baby"...and in hindsight how totally fucked up was that title from Josh's perspective? Here she promised him she'd stop working so much and settle down and have kids, and instead she says fuck promises and committed herself instead to Netflix, then has the audacity to make that her officially baby announcement? Jesus that must have been a punch in the gut for him. I wonder if she did it in spite.

Cant remember the month but it was when she was in Vegas with her real family and her "hbo family" aka Erik


Dont you just LOVE taking all your work "family" with you on actual family trips?  I know I do!  Come on everyone in my office of 300 people - pack your bags, we are all going on vay-cay!  Said no-one ever. Except Coldleen. Except she only takes one special work "family" member.  Her little closet tamagotchi boy!

What would it be like to be a fly on the wall in the Ballinger Mansion....


"Hey Kory, you little gay bitch, have you packed Erik and Gus Gus into my cabin luggage?"

"hey Kory remember you are NOTHING without me, your kween, mmmkay?"

"Kory, don't forget to pack my Adderall and my single pair of crusty jeans or you can fuck off back to nowhere-ville!"

"Kory - its time to feed erik and let him out of the mansion closet for a toilet break - and don't fucking do a 'rachel' and vlog him coming out of the bathroom or I''ll cut your balls off and phone you're grandma and tell her we are not really a couple and that you are as bent as a banana"

"Hey Kory, polish my uke until I can see my face in it"

"hey Kory, read gossip garden and tell me what I need to include in my next vlog"

"Hey Kory, clean up this cat shit, and also my shit, I've just shit the bed because I am KWEENT and I can shit wherever I like"

"hey Kory, stay up all night making my shit cardboard props, don't you dare fall asleep or I will phone your GRANDMA"!

"hEY kOREY, tweet on my twitter something about how Ive never been happier and that today is the most amazing day ever"

"hey Korey, its been at least 36 hours since I was loud, obnoxious and open mouth laughing at fuck all, send out the bat signal for all my gays to ASSEMBLE! so we can all vlog having THE BEST DAY EVER."

"korey, dont fucking forget that to me you are just a gay, nothing more than a GAY, gay is how you are defined, you have no other identity or dimensions, you exist only as MY GAY BEST FRIEND"

"kory, Erik is making too much noise in that closet while im trying to vlog that im totally ALONE and LONELY and SAD, give him the hose and take away his food until he learns to behave"

Jul 11, 2017 12:53:07 GMT 10 kelloshot said:

Jul 11, 2017 10:09:07 GMT 10 @puddlejumper said:

Yeah but notice she's not that manic over her career this season! She hates being in Vancouver and editing the episodes because Air-ick is not there!! There was no real sadness expressed about her HBO "family" separation this time--I think it was 100% all about Erik and the conflicting emotions about being stuck in a marriage she didn't want and not being able to have Erik.

Personally I think she knows there won't be a season 3. Hence why she keeps grooming her fans with the "if there's no season 3 ill be okay" talks. Remember how she kept season 2 a secret and lied about when she actually found out?

What's this? I don't remember hearing that.

Jul 11, 2017 13:12:08 GMT 10 purplequeen said:

What would it be like to be a fly on the wall in the Ballinger Mansion....


"Hey Kory, you little gay bitch, have you packed Erik and Gus Gus into my cabin luggage?"

"hey Kory remember you are NOTHING without me, your kween, mmmkay?"

"Kory, don't forget to pack my Adderall and my single pair of crusty jeans or you can fuck off back to nowhere-ville!"

"Kory - its time to feed erik and let him out of the mansion closet for a toilet break - and don't fucking do a 'rachel' and vlog him coming out of the bathroom or I''ll cut your balls off and phone you're grandma and tell her we are not really a couple and that you are as bent as a banana"

"Hey Kory, polish my uke until I can see my face in it"

"hey Kory, read gossip garden and tell me what I need to include in my next vlog"

"Hey Kory, clean up this cat shit, and also my shit, I've just shit the bed because I am KWEENT and I can shit wherever I like"

"hey Kory, stay up all night making my shit cardboard props, don't you dare fall asleep or I will phone your GRANDMA"!

"hEY kOREY, tweet on my twitter something about how Ive never been happier and that today is the most amazing day ever"

"hey Korey, its been at least 36 hours since I was loud, obnoxious and open mouth laughing at fuck all, send out the bat signal for all my gays to ASSEMBLE! so we can all vlog having THE BEST DAY EVER."

"korey, dont fucking forget that to me you are just a gay, nothing more than a GAY, gay is how you are defined, you have no other identity dimensions, you exist only as MY GAY BEST FRIEND"

LOLLL. Literally dying. Nice knowing you all.